Knowing it All

Neurons firing, my mind is ablaze,
The thoughts and ideas lasting for days,
Captivating charisma and astonishing wit,
And never a time of sleep deficit,
But this a mere prelude of what is to come,
As those neurons turn dormant one by one,
A fog of darkness envelopes my mind,
Capturing my dreams, it leaves nothing behind,
Lost in the shadows I blindly seek,
Something reminiscent of my peak,
But nothing arises, no one in the past,
Comes at the moment to see me suffer alas,
My only companions are tormenting demons,
Again and again reciting my sins,
And sleep yields no comfort, as I am further deceived,
By violent and vivid dreams that won’t leave,
Each hour that passes, each day that goes by,
Brings a new wave of temptation to die,
Cresting and crashing on my battered soul,
Washing away the last pieces I know,
But suddenly and without any cause,
The chaos begins to slowly withdraw,
The darkness and fog lift to reveal,
A new set of ideas no longer concealed,
But I know this time is solely confined,
To now and the next loss of my mind,
So do not tell me that I you envy,
For this is my life, full of such frenzy,
Never knowing exactly what one phase will cast,
Before the next brings with it my demons to last.