Behind Blue Eyes

Are they truly serene, sharp, and blue?
My eyes that share a deep gray hue?
The windows to my very soul,
Which possess a powerful role,
Of which memories I retain,
Within this complicated brain,
Are you brave enough to travel with me?
Behind blue eyes where memories be?
To witness what they have seen?
Have you the courage to see what I mean?
Lets start with the beginning of it all,
Just before things commenced to fall,
When things were good, kind, and benign,
But how quickly things change within this mind!
Emotions breach extreme highs and lows,
My very fabric shaken to and fro,
Finding love does not temper the beast,
Only feeding the storm that will never cease,
I have seen the love in their eyes,
Only turn into vengeful despise,
I’ve made them all cry from the pain,
That being insane gives to no gain,
Wish you to travel deeper behind,
To see what else we can find?
For bear in mind I have seen nightmares too,
The details of which are never too few,
Demons and death and victims of disease,
And lost loves who are never appeased,
Indeed this is my burden to bear,
Do I dare continue to share?
From all the knowledge I have acquired,
To all the few I have inspired,
To my handicapped sister’s funeral,
And all the memories I have of that girl?
Now look back the way you came,
Look outside from within my brain,
What color do my eyes now lack?
Has the brilliant blue turned to black?
The darkest of colors, the most opaque?
Of which only dark memories can make?
Salty tears do not wash away,
The masses of memories here to stay,
For these things are what truly lie,
Behind these beautiful blue eyes.